103 / We are all made of stars (yeah fucking right...)

Feel like screaming... nothing but shit happens. All I am is selfish I'm told I should be more selfish bit don't know how to do it. All I do is find more reasons to think I'm a bad person.

Losing Touch / chili ribs

Scared to be alone. Feel like a social misstep. All I can think about is what I'm missing. I look disgusting I'm filth. Desires and thoughts run through my head. Stressed

B6 Executive / Hommus

Anxious worried about friends, stressing for days. Sick on top.

Big Beat / Halycon

Want to help friends but can't. All I want is to see is smiles on all my close friends faces. It would make so happy to see. Saying that though my opinion of myself says I can't achieve happiness as I don't deserve it as I'm a bad person. I hope day to day that maybe my support is helping my friends but I have no idea. I make it my mission to make my friends feel comfortable and friends feel on edge so I feel like a fuck up.

Dreams Collapsing / Zimmer Hole

Sometimes I wish I could feel happy about things but I'm not I get jealous and bitter about things. I yearn for intimacy just to hold someone and listen. Maybe figure out how to accept a compliment. I question everything worried people hate or are annoyed by me. I'm trying to help myself but I continually think in not worth it.I don't understand what people see in me but it can't be much or it is and I'm just a fat pathetic fuck scared to do anything. I drag myself out with people destined to want to help I'm probably just screwing things up I'll do that.

Raise Your Weapon / Get Scraped

So awake. Just want to calm down. Happy, yet sad and anxious. Will pass out shortly but...

Red Shark / FUN.

I miss having fun that feeling that is achieved somehow... I can't do it alone. Attention span drops. I don't know. I want personal contact feel like a child. I see it around would love that comfort for and another

Safe House B / Watched it all

Gah.... just want to scream my lungs out so badly people have no idea just arghhhhhh!

Offend / Resist

Lonely night off is shit

A.D.I.D.A.S. / Lonerism

Sex leave my mind. Just fuck off.

On Earth / Bulky Ventura

How do people strike the line between fulfilled but without being selfish. I don't know how.

Mumbo No. 5 / Backbone

Feeling as if I'm losing people like something is missing. Like I'm being told what I want to hear. I hate my mind.

עכשיו מעונן / Disconnecting from the Grid

Isolated feeling like life hasn't started. Like a scratched disc. I think I'm too much for people to deal with.

Adlon / Bad Onion

I just want company someone to share time with. I'm a waste.

Everything Waits / "Why take a picture it's already gone"

People can walk away whenever they want no matter how close you are or nice you are. I'm scared of people and barely talk I push through most days. But... my friends I'm scared they all will run away cos I'm selfish and dumb.

Addicted to the Predicted / Silly Hummus

I should've listened to my brain... just not good around people.

Balcony Times / Shock Therapy

I'm excited and anxious about tomorrow. Something I've been putting off for weeks. I'm awkward and worried about my behavior and feelings. I get scared I'll fuck up some social situation or I'll be me and be in everyone's way. I just want a friend...

Never / Lisa / FOTS / Anakie RD / Never

I just want to stop crying... stop fighting. I want to ignore everything. Nothings happening and I'm scared I feel like I'm unworthy of anyone in my life. I have no drive for anything. I'm frightened and afraid. I'm strongly opinionated which is a bad combination.

I feel I'm overbearing and dumb getting in people's way. I feel I'm not allowed to feel or speak. I feel I'm going in circles and I've done it before so I should shut up and deal. Here I am crying, nose dripping.... People tell me "I'm awesome" if that's true how come no-one wants to touch me.... I can connect but I physically revolt people.

Last week I laid in bed crying all week. I'm bored I have nothing to do. And nothing interests me. I enjoy people's fuck ups for my gain because I'm a cunt. I know nothing. All I do is cry to people. People talk about relationships and I get weird as I know nothing and never experienced it I feel very small.

Bored To Death / Null LP

About to sleep thinking about pending boredom for the next 2 days. Wish I wasn't so pathetic.

20 Minutes Snickers / Making Awkward. Good. Yeah?

Sometimes being bisexual is shit.