Burning Inside / Nights In White Satin / Dig, Lazarus, Dig!!!

I shouldn't complain I don't have a bad life by any means even if sometimes I think I don't. As much as I work and study and even owe money to close relatives who help me. I can't help but think of things I've thrown away over the years it seems like a waste. I must admit sometimes it catches up on me like people sending me abuse when a funeral takes place from people left and right including people I live with from the moment I wake up/woken up to. It was a while ago but it still bothers me that people thought I didn't give a shit. Blah going in circles that was a while it just got me angry and that needed to be said.

I'll stop I'll just go on and on about stupid things I think about..... being lonely crying at night feeling sorry for myself and such. I don't feel comfortable talking I appreciate everyone's love and care as dumb as it sounds sometimes I just want a dumb answer of "hey, it's alright...". I know its false. I just wish I had company.....

Dislocated Day[Live] - Porcupine Tree - Coma Divine