Feel like screaming... nothing but shit happens. All I am is selfish I'm told I should be more selfish bit don't know how to do it. All I do is find more reasons to think I'm a bad person.
Thursday, 26 September 2013
Wednesday, 25 September 2013
Losing Touch / chili ribs
Scared to be alone. Feel like a social misstep. All I can think about is what I'm missing. I look disgusting I'm filth. Desires and thoughts run through my head. Stressed
Thursday, 19 September 2013
Wednesday, 11 September 2013
Big Beat / Halycon
Want to help friends but can't. All I want is to see is smiles on all my close friends faces. It would make so happy to see. Saying that though my opinion of myself says I can't achieve happiness as I don't deserve it as I'm a bad person. I hope day to day that maybe my support is helping my friends but I have no idea. I make it my mission to make my friends feel comfortable and friends feel on edge so I feel like a fuck up.
Monday, 9 September 2013
Dreams Collapsing / Zimmer Hole
Sometimes I wish I could feel happy about things but I'm not I get jealous and bitter about things. I yearn for intimacy just to hold someone and listen. Maybe figure out how to accept a compliment. I question everything worried people hate or are annoyed by me. I'm trying to help myself but I continually think in not worth it.I don't understand what people see in me but it can't be much or it is and I'm just a fat pathetic fuck scared to do anything. I drag myself out with people destined to want to help I'm probably just screwing things up I'll do that.
Saturday, 7 September 2013
Raise Your Weapon / Get Scraped
So awake. Just want to calm down. Happy, yet sad and anxious. Will pass out shortly but...
Thursday, 5 September 2013
Red Shark / FUN.
I miss having fun that feeling that is achieved somehow... I can't do it alone. Attention span drops. I don't know. I want personal contact feel like a child. I see it around would love that comfort for and another
Sunday, 1 September 2013
Safe House B / Watched it all
Gah.... just want to scream my lungs out so badly people have no idea just arghhhhhh!
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