Galcier (2.0) / Randy Savage

For my entire life I've denied who I've wanted to be by myself, by others, by family, by media. Causing me to feel lonely, be frustrated, be fake and scared. Recently my life has undertaken big changes.... a big one being leaving work something I felt I had to do for myself, the other opening to friends about something about me I've been hiding since a child(from myself as well I might add). Feeling a little free has made me feel so much more confident in myself something I never expected. Friends have been extremely supportive in such a big change and for that I thank them very kindly you're all amazing.

I still deal with a strong moral and ethical compass towards sexism, homophobia, indifference so I guess you could say discrimination in general. But I keep a tighter lip and keep a stricter policy with who I choose to spend time with now in my life. I look around and see people hiding and feel a little sad for them but I know actions are actions and with actions come consequences. I can relate to hiding parts of themselves out of fear, belief, pressure, & image. I've been there all my life I still suffer from it heavily now. In saying all this some friends may believe I'm talking about one or two people in my life. I'd like to make it clear I'm talking about more than one or two people in fact quite a lot of people I know in my life and people in general.

"There are days when people are, So nasty and convincing, They say things beyond belief, That sting and leave you wincing" - John Grant

There's alot of pressure in our society as to what each person needs to be people can say that's not true but those people to be blunt are just stupid or at the very least blind and deaf. But I guess thats life there is always the ignorant, the educated, the informed, the evil, the good....you get the idea world is made of all sorts. Everyone be yourself and important people will stay others are just filler and causing you pain and frustration it took me nearly two decades to come to this conclusion and every now and again when I'm feeling stressed or down I know I'll ignore that sometimes fear & anxiety is a powerful but the important thing doing your best to recognize whether your fear is warranted or not same with anxiety.

"Don't you pay them fuckers as they say no never mind, They don't give two shits about you. It's the blind leading the blind" - John Grant

It's a rare feeling, this increasing confidence I know I still have my issues but I thought I knew confidence maybe I didn't because this all feels new to me and I'm loving it (brb maccas). Even despite the fact I have like no job socially I feel like I can make a positive impact on myself and overcome some major anxiety issues. Also in case you can't already tell OMG JOHN GRANT IS AMAZING FANVCR!!!!! HERE!!!!. Can't wait to see him on Saturday will be amazing his music and words are beautiful and something I relate heavy too.

Glacier - John Grant feat. Sinead O’Connor - Pale Green Ghosts