Finally feel strong enough to write my first post.... Last few weeks have been quite the rollercoaster even more so than usual. I type this while feeling quite weak, running nose, headache, and dehydrated also feeling quite like lonely bachelor frog going to the supermarket (at 11:30pm) and buying bread, dip, block of cheese (that I'm just eating out of the wrapper) and a box of tissues (which I'm using for my nose and maybe for something else later lol).
Also feel as if I'm hanging myself over a girl that I cannot get out of my head, and that I can't have and I'm trying really hard to remove these thoughts and images of her smile. I feel scared to make another leap of faith always fretting over results and consequences along with my stupid "what if" scenarios that run through my mind like clockwork. On a up and downside of things its nice to know there are people that care whether it be at home, work, or uni I keep getting asked if "I'm alright?" nice to know people think about my well being even if I do become quite annoyed about it but I know its my fault for how I'm representing myself. Society be kinda fucked (look at me being all colloquial and shiz yo) I see it happening even more frequently in every part of my life good people getting treated badly this really pisses me off that is all.
Here is a song that I feel sums up my life thus far....
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