Dazed & Confused

Last few days have been strange involving reinvention with a little push from a good friend of mine and worrying thoughts about another. This all began when a fellow work mate approached me saying "If you ever need to talk you know you can...." also to go on saying last few weeks I've looked "depressed" and quite "gloomy" when I heard this something snapped I don't want to mope around I want this to change, I will make this happen, I need to focus on my studies, I need to find a girlfriend there is no sense moping around all the time over a girl that's in love with someone else she wants you to move on so make an effort to. I am going to do this, I have to do this, It will happen. I won't lie last 5 weeks have been hard and this change may make it worse but I say BRING IT THE FUCK ON!

I've got myself a new look a little like Milhouse (At least I'm a meme yeah?) I've started to jump into something just not sure how to approach the situation i want to just say what I want, just don't know if its a good idea since said person in question may not know me well enough to know what I'm like. But I guess... I don't even know I'm going to attempt to start a standard work day routine and study my arse off for the next few weeks social life may suffer a little but this thing needs to be achieved I did it today actually felt so amazing.

I think that the following song and lyrics sum up my realization on how to tackle my life from now on....

Metalingus - Alter Bridge - One Day Remains

I've been defeated and brought down
Dropped to my knees when hope ran out
The time has come to change my ways

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
A bitter place and a broken dream
And we'll leave it all, leave it all behind

I'll never long for what might have been
Regret won't waste my life again
I won't look back
I'll fight to remain:

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
A bitter place and a broken dream
And we'll leave it all, leave it all behind

On this day its so real to me
Everything has come to life
Another chance to chase a dream
Another chance to feel
Chance to feel alive

Fear will kill me, all I could be
Lift these sorrows
Let me breathe, could you set me free
Could you set me free

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
A bitter place and a broken dream
And we'll leave it all behind
On this day its so real to me
Everything has come to life
Another chance to chase a dream
Another chance to feel
Chance to feel alive