This is an opinion thats hard to convey as weird as it sounds I'm not trying to be dirty writing this down I'm trying to convey my pain, my anxiety, and my curiosity.
Sex is a strange, fun, evil, discovery, confusing, amazing...a bit of everything. Its something you can't escape its everywhere media, conversion, human nature. As a person or as a guy age 21 I walk around with this thing attached reminding me of what I'm missing creating thoughts, fantasies, ideals. People say to me sex isn't everything all coming from people who have experienced it, but if you ask them how is sex they say pretty good at the very least. As well yourself reminding your self how an orgasm feels when you masturbate you think to yourself this would be great to share this feeling with someone else not mention exploration and fun with someone. Since puberty you start to discover sex and what your body can do all common knowledge but you also think over and over hey this activity is fun I want to share it with someone. In my position I feel I'm watching everyone I know talk about and share their times they have had in relation to sex where I have none. Its like saying everyone can have pizza but you.... You have the ability to order and eat pizza but can't achive it. I know it sounds strange its just how I feel out of place I make sex jokes to feel I fit when I'm doing the opposite but do it out of anxiety. Blah I feel shit sleep and pass out forget about life. Still don't know how I feel about sex can't even describe what I mean.
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