We Dance / Dinosaurs On Fire / ...To The Wrong Songs

Everything is stressing me out heart racing millions miles an hour most of the time. People want me to talk but I'm scared. Pushing everyone away...

THE NEW BEAT!!! / New Art For The Real People

New Noise - Refused - The Shape Of Punk To Come: A Chimerical Bombination in 12 Bursts

Lies (Response) / Shuggy / Yellow Matter Custard

I read a blog tonight that in all honesty is the truth but also what most psychologists would label as rumination. It talked of society, people, ideals, and social etiquette basically saying "Fuck you WORLD!" which I can admit I'm like all the time whether on the outside or on the inside. But it got me thinking obviously there are a lot of people like us that think this way so why is the world the way it is I guess we all follow to much.

Dark Horse /

Sigh... Things.... Anxiety... Freaking out...and runny nosec

YOTO / Detachable Legs (Peel Star)

I have times where all I think of is her and it sucks. Stressed and tense as well.

Great Man, Great Man / Stumble

Everyday I worry more and more about my friend I'm doing everything I can to support them and cheer them up it sucks when there is nothing much I can do. Sometimes i wonder what life would be like if I was born differently fuck I sound crazy there...

Mouse Named Gerald / Albatross Willowing Across The Sand

Feel so helpless I want to help a close friend of mine so much more than words can describe cos I was speechless. I care for this person so soo much I hate the fact my friend feels the way she does and that I can't help her right now it feels like.

I hope you feel a little more up tomorrow and know I'm there for support as I am for all my friends.

A is for Alpine / Stargasm(2)

Today was frantic. Anxious from people hounding me from each direction, to me trying to help someone, to nearly causing a fight because of it, to seeing a bloodied man on the street with two ambulances in attendance.

Gah, I threw up at one stage partially caused by the junk I'd been eating and partially to stress. I know I should stop using this as a source of rumination...

Could talk more in detail cbf falling to sleep now.

Life At Times in AUDIO FORMAT

 Walk Idiot Walk - The Hives - Tyrannosaurus Hives

Boyle / Sesame Snarisps

Maybe I take things too seriously I don't know. Ideals can beat me at the best of times as with social norms... They can make my life miserable sometimes or anxious or both.

I know they are bullshit but sometimes it feels like pressure from society makes me feel like dirt. I search for images for good and bad reasons.

Brbrbrbrb / yes determine

Things seem on a ledge just balancing slightest knock could create an avalanche of things. Nights seem dark as dumb as that sounds... And empty...

Crimson Bolt / Texada

Wake up anxious so go out of my way to hang with friends. The whole time despite being around friends I feel so alone and empty wondering what I'm doing. After hours of preoccupying my time I finally break and cry.

Rainn Forte / Pfft

Feel like I'm building a personal hell, paranoid about the future. Hoping to I don't know... feel lazy don't have a lot of motivation. I set myself up to fail I think sometimes I used to be very enthusiastic now I struggle to care for much things I used to consider important.

I just want a purpose, I don't seem to feel I have one right now like I feel like I'm searching don't know what for.

Hate this anxiety it feels like just slowly pecking away at me bit by bit.

Random Analysis / Eko / Farris NUCLEAR Torture

Stressed, anxious, worried, about everything I just cry and cry and cry most of the night. I want company scared to ask for it, anxious when I have it... Never ending battle. Scared to ask for help as I don't want to be a bother. I spent tonight trying to distract myself not knowing what to do.

My mind keeps literally going blank on small things and I worry ill forget something important.

I'm torn, I love my friends, I care for my friends... They're arguing and say hurtful things about each other even include me. I drop things for my friends help them people often think I want something when I act that way but I honestly just to help and see a smile one my favourite things in the world as corny as it sounds.

I see things going sour in all of my social groups from backstabbings, misunderstandings, anger, depression, anxiety, body image, power, and more.

It all becomes to much I just get to a point where fuck all the pressures I'm going to watch random videos, eat trash, fap and sleep.

Laughed At / Offended / Awkward

I open myself up but to get blatantly laughed by someone I have trusted for years to the point where they are crying of laughter big joke. So offended by some views I just want to grrrr.... All this makes me anxious and clingy gah....

I'll smile but really I'm just like you don't really think that way do you?....

Someone I respect so much image just shattered.... I'm sick which sucks think positive I'm thinking positive just hard to when anxious hope I didn't make an arse of myself anyway can't change that now look forward march on.