Life Burns! / Colony Collapse

Today I was shit from get go, I sleep in miss classes tear up at least 8 times today before anything even went down... now I'm balling my eyes out in the dark alone... can't even shower tomorrow it looks like.... Can't even stand up for myself I'm fucking pathetic or stick up for those who stick up for me... FUCK these tears and heavy breathing. Probably fail uni again. Looks like mum's partner has left her as well. I have no money and need it. I hate being a mess. I hate that I starve myself. I am an ugly fuck who can't enjoy a life that really has no problems. Can life give me a break. Head throbbing. Someone I love tries to contact me and i can't respond. Because I don't know... I have no idea why some waste their time on me. Dizzy... may just pass out like last night... Can't even type everything's a blur. I have to push on though I have so much to do. So dizzy, eyes crying with tears.