II. Paradise Lost: Serpent Tongue / Thefakesoundofprogress

I feel like things are unfair with someone how it's be alright one way but not another. Things were awkward one is doing legwork while another does nothing I'm making an effort but get no reply what so ever people are coming to me going why is it like this and what am I to say? I have as much clue as the next person. I'm trying to get things to work and it seems nothing is happening on the other end. I get frustrated want to lock self in room but I don't. "They" tell others "Yeah... it was awkward" well I feel like shaking them and say do something about it come talk to me why must it always be me to try and fix things...

Every friendship I've ever had. I've been the strong one. Can't I be the weak one for once I feel I deserve it. Wish I had friends here instead of hanging onto others. It would be nice to call someone and go "hey you feel like coming over?" I feel that line....wait not feel.... that line has not been uttered once. *Sigh* I'll have another attempt at doing things I guess. I can't say anything because people will go blah well its not the same blah blah this blah and blah blah. I don't even care anymore if they don't understand I guess they never will it's too hard to explain.

Whatever - Godsmack - Godsmack