No Cars Go / 550 3108DC 24H365 / The Dire Razor

Sure I have a good time here but I can't help but feel so neglected from others that I was once so close. I can't say anything because if I do I sound like a depressed selfish mess and they'll bring up well one night you organized Melbourne and music blah blah blah blah. Some say speak up but logically I can see if I do I'll bite off more than I can chew creating a social shitstorm me in the eye of it in limbo on the outer till the "tribunal" makes a decision on my "place". Do I have to prove myself or what? Do I have to follow everyone till they go OK the foreign wolf can become one of our pack?

It all seems so dramatic what I writing but I guarantee those involved know what I mean or they'll go Justin's being a sensitive flower needing nurturing he can sit over there with Erin. OR what does he want us to do jeez?!!!!!

Guess I'm frustrated and get lonely at nights as well which can't be helped by anyone that's my problem no one else. If I didn't see a post I'd still feel lonely it just annoys me I get no messages, no replys, no calls, no invites to anything anymore. If I want to hang out I have to harass and when I do I feel uncomfortable and not in the circle unwanted by all in attendance. And why because I live 30 minutes away?

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