What do?.... Maybe I need to get into shape to fit into this shallow game of love. I had a great day in the surf despite fucking foot up and complaining to friends about it till I dislodged a big arse rock stuck under my skin, but it was good exercise. I'll admit going to such a place stirs some good memories I'll try to forget but I do like the beach personally also for myself also. I have been good I have not watched a certain film in 3 weeks and listened to a certain song in 3 weeks aswell which I will maintain a little longer cos I do think it is a good movie in its own right same with the song being from the lips of Steven Wilson of course.
What to do with life I kinda just don't care as much as I should. I will admit since distraction has entered my life I'm no longer.... laying in my bed all day crying. I'm hoping I reach a point where I hit a total realization with an answer for what to do, I don't know what, whether it be love...work....social, something to change how I am for the better but I guess I need to work to reach this point it won't just happen. Still total infatuation drags me down I will admit I'd do anything to see a smile from her it is quite beautiful......OK, OK I'll stop.......So pretty....STOP
Carry Me Over - Avantasia - The Scarecrow
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