Uncomfortably Numb / Bored To Death / Brains Out!

Today I lay bored to death browsing the internet and I realize I don't care everything is just a waste of time I don't really find what I'm doing interesting at all start a game... bored... start watching something... bored. Though if I'm with people doing the same thing I'm good I don't know what it is I guess I'm lonely here a lot. But I can still be picky I don't know. Today I was blank more than anything I admitted something that is so confusing, difficult, and scary to me.

I sit at times tears running down my face feeling helpless... like life will be a uphill battle for the rest of my life be abnormal dealing with the virgin thing, the finance stuff, social anxiety, being to nice and being stood on like I have in the past. I try my best to the point where I don't see the limit and get stood on...People say I have high empathy and stuff I don't where I'm going with this I feel lost with life I guess others feel the same I don't know. I hate being up and down its shit oh well off to bed deal with another challenge of shit tomorrow.... I'll have done something wrong i always do.

Ghost - Devin Townsend Project - Ghost