Clenching The Fists Of Dissent / Walk

Today has been miserable woke up at midday went to the lounge to watch some mediocre television so I wouldn't sit in my room moping around and possibly crying urghhh.... A friend called me on something I do that I actually don't really like but I guess I do it to make fun of something I've never experienced sigh and built up in my mind. I lay sweaty on the couch just staring into space occasionally watching the TV for a laugh other housemate sitting there doing the same. I worry about finances and hate my job but I can't leave cos I need to pay rent and other bills which are still unpayed. I keep thinking of a friend that won't speak to me it sucks she's still all I can think about most days I want them out of my head but easy said than done I am really trying I really, really am. I eventually pick myself have a shitty microwave dinner be all out of it to put it nicely in front of everyone I encounter. Get to work don't even care am tired and shitty, I drop 40 stubbies, all smashed to make my day even better I just scream "FUCK THIS" and smash one of the only stubbies not left smashed then clean up all with about 30 people watching I just didn't give a fuck to be honest at that point and sat down upstairs before I do something else stupid in my state which was probably one of the best things I did was sit back and calm down. But I will say this tonight I would have been worse if it wasn't for the dancers constantly supporting me without them noticing it they are all unit constantly supporting one another including me I can't thank them enough especially Tabitha, Sugar/Harry/Meagan, Zoe, Roxy, & Sophie... I know I can stir them up a bit but we have fun :). I'm glad today is over nothing but shit and depressing glad its DONE!!!

RIP. Dimebag Darrell 7 Years yesterday you were taken away 

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