Sleeping Awake / Psycho Holiday

Yesterday someone re-emerged coming to me opening up after a long absence since apparently no one will talk to her about such a taboo topic that has left her withdrawn and scared of people just wanting an ear someone to listen that won't immediately shut her down or say hey its alright... sometimes we all need to talk to someone to help get our heads around topics the problem is some topics such as this one people shut down and say "hey its over and move on" when its quite a serious topic she was talking about something she has to carry on with "what if" all her life and I think its harsh to just dismiss that. On to a positive list thingy that involves a bullet.

• Old friendship is getting stronger
• Christmas Shopping DONE
• Got a second christmas present from dancers
• Fixed a little confusion between friends that was causing distance

Last night was hectic filled with violence and anger at work we had a 20 man brawl at midnight at the peak of busyness for work took every guard we had to stop it along with a bar manager who was ex-security previously while I detered customers to stop innocent bystanders getting involved, meanwhile dancers are still pushing their way through the action just for a lousy 50 dollars "ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS!!?" can't you wait are you fucking stupid if they got hurt it would have been no sympathy from me is all I can say the smart ones stayed back and knew how unpredictable it can be.

I usually loathe this time of year but for some reason I'm loving it at the moment... I some people I know aren't for them its nearly over just one more intense day then it'll be done look up try and have fun. I'm excited and worried for a reformation of a old friendship I want them to meet my other group of friends but I also have to be aware of repercussions that come with it in the future I know she'll never ditch me but I have to aware of anything that can come for that and how I'll handle it. I am getting better day by day slowly I just can't jump too far ahead of myself I know this myself or I'll end up at square one again which is no good for anyone around me at all so I'll keep taking baby steps towards my goal but I am so happy this friendship is coming back so happy talking of old times and both of us wanting to be back at that point a friendship like this one is rare and I was never going to walk away and neither was she.

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