Blue Mango Cafe / Within Temptation

Today I turned 21 and I spent it with some of the besterest(its now a word deal with it) peoples in the world at one of the most relaxed locations in my life. Bodysurfing has done wonders for me and I'm going to keep it up as long as I can. I'm getting comments everywhere saying I've lost weight personally i haven't noticed but a lot of people are saying it. To a close friend of mine sucks we couldn't hang today its alright I understand whats happening with you hope things get better if you ever feel like talking to me about stuff feel free to talk to me you know I want to listen and try to help you :).

I'm looking forward to the next day now its great rather than dreading everything. I'm facing a dilemma at the moment where I could possibly get essentially something physical happening with someone that likes me I think.... but I don't know and I don't want to lead her on or hurt their feelings either. To be honest all I'd want to at the moment is lay in bed holding someone in my arms I've always wanted to experience that closeness it would be nice to me I think that's better than sex and just tell someone that I love them it would be the best thing in the world I remain optimistic that I will find this person sometime soon. I don't want to brag but I think I would make a good boyfriend sucks no one is interested.

Again before I sign off big shout out to 2 people in particular who made my birthday amazing even if it was an average day at the beach you are both awesome!!!!!!

The Birthday Song - Jon Lajoie - I Kill People