Seperate Lives / Hey Man, Nice Shot / Knife Party

Life.... nothing goes right love....non existent, friends...in separate rooms, family...never satisfied. Always stuck in the middle being neutral has ups...and downs tonight shit went down the second I became fully aware while at a party others may not have noticed but I had a massive anxiety attack chest tight felt like I was being choked to death and was holding my breath to not cause a stir for others lucky I was sitting down is all I could say I know it sounds selfish but the what if scenarios I ran through my head are coming to life. From now on I'll be like a victim of divorce in a way hanging with one friend at a time... and yes, I am aware that my friend was being a dick so I completely understand where one friend is going with this I know because I do hold similar values and morals which as a guy makes me gay yeah?

Don't mind my rant above my friend is copping emotional pain and anger all of which valid I'm just being selfish and worrying about myself. Went to a party tonight I know I was wanted I just feel alone heard a few lines which is intended to be nice but it cuts into me "You'll find someone your a nice guy" wow cool story bro hasn't happened yet MR 5000th person to say that. Being the nice guy is shit you get nowhere I can't even change too I've tried its not me I love getting stepped on... Please Life get better for me and my friends I really don't ask for much I just want people to get along... I can understand why they won't and agree. A friend told me things can't stay negative forever...but must things get worse I hate this please let the growth happen and something positive happen soon I'm losing optimism with life. These pills are making happy but all I want to is just tear down a building in anger and cry in the corner life sucks!

Heaven's A Lie - Lacuna Coil - Comalies