Open Mind / Running Blind

This is sort of an open apology/explanation/mindless drone to some close friends of mine also to those who are new oh hai sorry if this makes you feel as if you are 12. Some of you have noticed, a lot haven't that I haven't been myself in some cases aggressive I haven't even noticed myself if I have been towards you I'm sorry and despite everything I'm going through at the moment its my problem and I shouldn't put it on anyone else especially those that are trying to help I've been a prick to put it nicely and selfish pushing those I care about away alienating most people around me. Fucking anti-depressants jerk me around like a crazy person they do good but they do bad.

I wish I wasn't so fucked up sometimes.... and sometimes I just wish things had never ever turned out this way I ruminate over someone I can never obtain plus shes feeling shit and I'm feeling shit and its a fucking circle of bullshit I can't stop thinking about. I take out my frustrations on others unintentionally so now I feel anxious towards anything I say or do as I'm afraid I'm going to hurt someone I care about in the process to the point where I am becoming a nervous wreck. Ohhhh.... to those new to this you don't the person I'm fucked up over in case you point fingers "oh its this person!" and tear them down. I've been weird this past year surprised I even made new friends to be honest..... so thank you..... hopefully I can go back to happy talented soon instead of this fuckwit, anti-social dickhead, attention seeker I am now so again I'm sorry and your concerns and support has not gone unnoticed if you like to know more about me or how I feel check back I update daily and this has about 46 posts now and read back if you wish

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