Life of a Hypocrite who is tired, bored & lonely

I cause problems for those I don't intend for everyone in my social group passively in doing so I push everyone away leaving me alone with no one really to talk to. I don't know who to talk to anymore or who to hang out with everyone is busy, or working, or at a distance, or plain don't want to talk to me. With all that in mind I'm bored out of my mind I don't know what to do nothing satisfies me for too long I want to exercise but I don't want to leave this prison known as my room I should be doing my washing at least its pathetic but instead I may lie in bed take the early shift at work and hope its long one so I don't have to return to my room. I want anything to satisfy me, entertain me. I started online dating to help try and find a girlfriend and all I've got is 50 rejections not one accept to even contact someone not even a derp yes feelgreatman.jpg. I'm sick of being this pathetic 21 year old virgin who is friends with everyone and is this hypocrite who hates people who gossip and inadvertently gossips or creates drama without realizing it. May just sleep the rest of the day and keep it up no one wants to do anything anyway people are tense all about ready to snap in every direction. I feel so inadequate a few years ago I had my first kiss I was drunk but not too drunk more tipsy to be honest at the time and she had asked for it next day she tells everyone at school I took advantage of her and essentially I was a prick. Why do people and life suck? I put my self in that people category aswell. I just want to be happy and cheery but everything that is going on at the moment I have no idea may just go back to sleep let the washing and stuff pile up or go home to parents and hear them yell at me over little shit. Most of my close friends are girls and its nice but it also sucks cos I can't hang with most of them one on one cos they feel they may be criticized by my social groups as something happening between us when really I just want to hang out and talk and shit people can judge so harshly sometimes and I put myself into that category aswell.

Alone I Break - Korn - Untouchables