I don't want to get treated like a special case but am but at the same time know I should a bit. Mind is swirling in thought about life just being thrown down the drain. I want to get out of bed but feel embarrassed to be seen anywhere feel like just a big joke it's not a good feeling. I'm sick of people saying you'll find someone oh well 21 years and not even anything close should I just fall into a pit of casual sex at least maybe I'll be good for something to people or maybe I'll just suck at that too like I do at most things. In my room just spacing out got an assignment due tonight haven't started... exams this week not ready got too much on my mind going to be kicked out most likely hopefully not.
Phones screwed itself so i lost all my contacts might be a good thing that way I can't bother anyone. Easy for people to say oh it's great being single sometimes.....oh I'm sorry try nothing for 21 years see how you fucking like it and not even a single positive result back in that time or anyone having a crack at you really makes you feel great that no one wants you at all not even for just for sex nothing.....oh your a nice guy your views on relationships are interesting its good that guys like you still exist.... well I'll tell you something we may not exist for much longer(not implying suicide before I get spammed about that) because we are sick of getting jerked around by this world why do all the fuck wits seem to get all the happiness in the world while a nice guy like me(well I like to think I am could be wrong you tell me) gets nothing but pain, and isolation.
FUCKING SICK OF THIS!
Everything Ends - Slipknot - Iowa
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