Sex, Sleep, Eat, Drink, Dream / Symphony #9

Social inadequacy something I feel all the time I know everyone feels this but I feel at times that I haven't grown socially properly like most people grow up in their teens having their first kiss by 13-14 then experiencing sex or having a sexual experience of some description at the age of 16-18 and amongst all of it being in and out of relationships. Well I have not followed anyone of those generally conceived norms. Which at times I find hard when you such throw away lines from people such as "oh you know what it's like when you break up with someone...." or even just a random sex story. I don't know what to say half the time so I do what I always do crack a joke usually bad that doesn't make sense at my dispense people laugh thinking oh he's alright...

It's not like I can say anything in these situations either cos its me that's fucked up not anyone else, people say they understand what I mean when I say this but that comes from people who have taken the steps listed above. I guarantee you if they were in my shoes they would understand how overwhelming it is everyday you can't escape sex it's everywhere television stations, internet (ORLY?), normal conversation but then again not even sex just talking about relationships or a short romantic encounter people at least assume that I've experienced that I haven't...

Its not even the act of what sex that I'm curious about its having a closeness with someone it sounds just nice, open, honest, having complete vulnerability and still being safe sounds like a wonderful thing to me. What do I do since I can't have that, pretend I know what people are talking about crack a bad joke no one will know how I feel COS I'M A ROBOT!!!!!!!

In the meantime I need to deal with what ever life throws at me please, please be nice to me, I've been ever so good. At least I think I have been...

Socio - Stone Sour - Come What(ever) May