The Unthinking Majority / Walking In Circles

Today I woke up late got myself a little worked up over something that was probably nothing that was all good an hour later.... Stewed in bed till 6pm started playing Dungeons and Dragons with some close friends despite the errr.... ahhhh... *cough* AWKWARD *cough* situation that was building and building.....and my pending position/stance, still dizzy physically from these fucking pills. Had to kind of stop DnD session sorry guys my head was thumping like crazy by the end. Then to chuck on some sweet, sweet "It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia" that made me happy I cut it off to help a friend vent which I'm fine with they are good to me and anyone good to me I help them in turn :).

Trying to grasp why some people have it so easy while some people that work hard and put in emotional effort with people get nowhere... maybe I should just close myself off be cocky that'll work yeah?.... oh that's right it does at least at the moment I guess I'll have to wait 5 years till people see who I really am all of the fucking fair sometimes I hate being mature at least I think I am...

I spent most of the end of tonight relaying things in my head situations..., smiles..., conversations..., general good times.... a friend who I choose not to see or speak to you because of my stupid feelings... I miss you dearly... I just want to hang out I miss our fun and shopping trips even if they were just to ALDI or town which has like no shops really at all.... and of course Nandos. Despite everything at the moment I want you at my 21st you know that and I know you will be there.

This song I have posted on my blog before but I feel that it's relevant still sadly...

Over And Over - Three Days Grace - One-X