It's A Madhouse / Under Pressure / Being Everyone

This, that, this, that oh god!!....things to do, people to appease, and satisfy I don't want to let you down I want to take a breather but I don't and can't. Stumbling around insecure about petty decisions and actions tripping over all of my own shit. I can see myself getting touchy and anxious again, not to mention folks getting up in my shit putting my brother in the middle which is not cool about MY birthday which they are going the right way into being not involved at all if they keep going I don't care if that sounds selfish that's the way things will be and I don't care. Weekend has started already got people texting me to catch up who I haven't seen in ages I feel more busy than when uni was on. I will try and see you all soon most of you have no idea what I'm going through and I'd kinda just love a day to kick back and relax with some friends without all of the ahhhh....ehhhh... awkwardness that is happening but I'm not going to hold my breath for that one sadly to be honest I'm jealous I'm not involved in the car pile up just to be involved as retarded as that sounds.

I also find myself jealous of nearly everyone I know purely because they have a love life even if theirs is fucked up at least they have one better than just a third wheel for everything.

Breakdown - Breaking Benjamin - We Are Not Alone