Sound Of Silver / Endless Dream : Talk

Had a scare tonight sitting alone at a late shut pharmacy waiting for a prescription of a months worth of anti-depressants I'm waiting then my chest feels likes its closing up like a tight sensation along with the urge to breathe heavily out of nowhere I hope this wasn't the first of a series of anxiety attacks cos I'll admit it I was kind of scared especially in a public area alone.

Strange coincidence also occurred I thought I was a tad fucked up then I started watching the British television show "skins" which I've seen many times before including the episode I'm about to refer to where in one episode the character in focus had some similar events happen to me that are quite depressing but I felt kind of relieved in a sense as it poses a situation that I've been put in being displayed as something that happens in life made me feel kind of normal in a sadistic way lol. I know it was late and a tad third wheel when watching it well I felt that way but screw it I had to see the whole episode.

Tomorrow I start taking medication, I know these won't fix me but will help give me a little push into helping beat this thing. I don't know what tomorrow will hold for me supposed to run an errand with someone tomorrow probably won't happen. Maybe I 'll get around to breaking this, my condition to my family. Maybe...

Trying to be entertained is becoming harder, harder nothing seems to interest me in terms of anything I'm striving to be interested in a hobby anything even just a television program it seems like I've seen everything even when I haven't. I'll surely find something. Feels like I'm paranoid or something...

Gold Teeth On A Bum - The Dillinger Escape Plan - Option Paralysis