Mother Hold the Candle Steady While I Shave the Chicken's Lip / Speak

Wake up the last few days without a single patch of blue on my hands fuck yeah..... get a phone call from a close mate who I really haven't spoken to in a while well not about anything serious saying "Your not going to hurt yourself or something" I respond with an obvious "No". I think I should tell people so they know my side of the story rather than hear it from another I know the person who told means well and is telling people that will be sensitive to the issue and are close to me. I kinda don't want special treatment even though I should be getting it...I'm not anything special.

If you are wondering what this "example" is there for its because apparently one of the things I'm supposed to not do is talk myself into thinking ideas such as "I should", "I shouldn't", "But,...", & "What ifs..." If I look back just on posts on this blog I'm bad for all of these. Nearly out into a time when I can sort of relax without constant stresses it may be nicer or harder with less distractions I hate being everyone's problem I wish I knew what people thought of me I feel like an idiot loser clinging onto anyone that will give me the time of day which is actually a lot of people (So I look kind of a little bit crazy) but I don't know if it's because of my state or they actually want to spend time with me that question burns on my mind alot.

Sometimes I wonder if anyone reads this thing only one way to find out "Flying table raping a lion while licking a Ford Festiva".

Whatever - Godsmack - Godsmack(Self-Titled)