Don't Touch My Turntables / Deform to Form a Star

Being ultra touchy sucks... I take throw away comments directly to heart even though in a normal frame of mind I would just be like oh that's nothing. What I do in my frame of mind:

• "Oh god why am I the center of that joke is it because this, this and this..."
• "How do I respond to this do I make a joke about them? shut my mouth? what...?"
• "Pretend I didn't hear it..."
• "Oh god just respond don't be awkward things will just get get worse for you..."

I go into tomorrow stressing about confrontation something I can't avoid what will I say? what will I do? Feel like hiding away tomorrow even though that is the worse thing to do in my state, but it is what I want to do that way I can't disappoint anyone unless they call me and abuse me which is great all I ever try to do is the right thing. Beginning to love and hate my room its an emotional prison I use to get away from then my thoughts attack me like a cheese grater to the face not a great feeling not at all.

No Part Of Me - Steven Wilson - Grace For Drowning