Come Together / Epitaph

Yesterday I was able to hang out with someone I've been tense around for some time without awkwardness it felt sorta like what it used to be YES! I've been waiting for this amazing feeling to come back for a while. I still have feelings for them but its not as strong and I'm coping quite well with acknowledging that fact.

I miss my friends I know they can be childish at times but yeah... I really do miss them probably talking to myself... nothing seems the same. I have things to do around the house but all I feel I should be is social at the moment but instead I lay in my room staring at a wall feeling alone and a waste I have no one. Everything I write is just wanting justification and seeking attention don't mind me I'm not important. I sound like a fuckhead probably because I am. I want to get out meet people, relax, talk, have fun, watch films with friends, have a date, be normal. But I can't. People will read this and will slap me and I deserve every thing that happens.

Stargasm - Mastodon - The Hunter