Pow Pow / Again....& Again.....

Am I bad person for being jealous of others happiness I feel like a cunt. Feel like crawling into a dark place and crying sometimes...I look around others things seem to just fall into place while I stew doing comparisons. I feel like just throwing a tantrum crying its not fair I'm a good person and life kicks me around. Others who I become jealous of are great people and all of them mean a great deal to me and deserve everything positive that come their way some of them haven't had a great time either ... and when I feel jealous I feel like a bitter piece of shit who doesn't deserve the time of day. I'm all caught up in my head with the same girl I have been for years FUCK YOU LOVE!!!!!!!! I want to get over this and hang out with her so bad...I want to get past this I pretend like the feelings aren't there I don't want to tell others as I don't want to annoy or go on and on plus its a non-problem others have real problems. All I want some days is a hug.

Love You To Death - Type O Negative - October Rust