Lonely Day / *sigh*

Today has been shit I tried to leave the house everyone is busy or away or with people I don't completely feel comfortable around. I don't really want to see anyone anyway I feel like an embarrassment alone, boring, pathetic. It's days like these I know people will never look at me how can I be alone for over 21 years.... or have never even experienced anything. I do nothing but moan annoy people I care about with my stupid problems tonight I bought a pizza laid on the couch watching TV in silence with my housemates. I over analyze things. Feel like I'm being kicked by life all I do is try and help people have fun and I can't even do that maybe I should just try and adapt to living life in the future in a flat by myself eating baked beans, laying on the couch watching terrible TV and cheesy action films passing time doing mundane housework cause I can't even do others things I have no drive for even that.... Ruminating in circles because I'm lazy and stupid others have bigger problems and I sulk like a fuck, sweaty and smelly in my room staring at the wall for extended periods of time. I suppose I should do dishes that aren't mine as well.

Lonely Day - System Of  A Down - Hypnotize