Decide In The Eyes / Sick On Sunday

I'm sick, I'm tired and I'm stressed over everything piling up on me and I'm relying on others which isn't cool all over simple house stuff gah... I'm a mess constantly seeking help, approval, validation I feel like a leach on society at times. Feel abandoned by some which makes me feel all alone the other night I had someone over I never would just because I wanted company...:/. Now that's kind of sad.

I compare myself I get jealous feel like a bad bitter person who deserves nothing hence feeling like a leach on society. I hope I can sleep tonight i really do. I feel like I've done nothing but push people and be selfish towards my friends. Financially I'm worried which sucks someone is offering to help I may take it but I really don't want to I feel bad enough treating her like a ledge to lean on. I procrastinate by doing nothing that doesn't even fulfill me or even entertain me, I want to contact friends but don't want to deal with the drama or worry what they think of me for hanging with someone right now with everything its all a bit much I feel like I'm broken breaking down over what seems like house chores.

This Fire Burns - Killswitch Engage - As Daylight Dies (Special Edition)