Tonight I had a hard time dealing with myself floating around to the point where I was alone crying on my bed it was going to come out sooner or later tears were building. I was just running around using distractions which I think helped I cried till I slept, woke up and headed to work.
Where I find out a friend has been in hospital yesterday due to a weak heart yet insists on working. But I see a friend who has been overseas for 2 months so that was awesome. Sometimes I love work I just love the staff and dancers always having a smile and hating on customers bringing us together as some awesome family supporting one another getting through the night.
I suppose alot of my problems are based alot around my negative thinking which most people will look at this and go...."well obviously" *eyes roll*. But I guess I'm just going to try to ignore the negative thoughts I have...like I do already just going to try a bit harder. I guess I look at life like its a obstacle course this is just a small bump like a tight rope with a net it's hard to get across I fall down but I must get up and try again the sense of accomplishment after I pass this will be amazing. I'm confident I can get passed this it will be hard... It has been hard.
I have to thank 2 special people for putting up with me, one being a close friend the other my housemate I know I can be difficult and a little fucked.
Tomoz road trip to mystic lands....then I dont know...can't wait for wednesday night picnic will be great and chilled.
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