Beat Hazard / New Born / Pathetic Entry #78

Whats wrong with me I sit in a lounge room relaxed playing a video game with tears in my eyes all because I'm alone fuck I'm pathetic I actually had a good day what's wrong with me...Thinking will life always be me with friends and that's it. I see couples everywhere I get jealous and want to cry I'm a terrible person being all jealous and shit. I'll just sit here trying to forget my embarrassment of a life out of peoples way all I do is impede people I complain here as to not be a code yellow. I hear casual stories about sex and casual conversations of any pseudo relationship whether it be friends with benefits, to boyfriend and girlfriend, to just one night stands makes me feel great that I'm never even thought of as an interest as well as being totally stressed about finances and stuff maybe I should just sleep. I'm nothing but an attention seeking anxious loser don't mind me.