Heartattack In A Layby / XMII

I don't know what's wrong with me I tell myself I feel uncomfortable with things today so I go to my room to unwind with some videos games but I can't do that I stare at a screen feelings come rushing back I cry but don't at the same time I just keep wiping tears away trying to pull myself together I'll go out to people in a minute try and smile keep up appearances and such. I'm tired so tired I've had plenty of sleep I just want to drift into a sleep but i know thats dumb I'll fuck up my already fucked sleeping pattern.....arghhh...anyway.....back to happy facade happy happy why am I down I don't have much to be down about I have great close friends and stuff I don't know.

Stars Die - Porcupine Tree - The Sky Moves Sideways