Scared / Lost

I'm scared to leave my room as I feel I'm a burden and liability. I'm scared I may hurt people not in a physical way but emotionally. All I do is complain sometimes I feel I should just lay in my room and not bother a soul that way I can't hurt anyone and if I want to complain I can just talk to the wall. Posting this is asking for backlash I guess. I don't know why people bother with me I'm just constantly anxious the slightest thing at the moment makes me behave in a way I hate which is my fault and I'm sorry to those I've hurt in anyway. I never like entering this room as all I associate with this room is rumination. Everything on this blog is me being an attention seeker. Live in room for 2 months...Profit yeah?