Consider This / Short Bus

Last 2 days have been contrasting yesterday was awesome and comfortable. Today on the other hand has had it moments but ultimately I feel more anxious i just feel like I'm out of place in terms of conversation I'll say something get a bad look or a laugh or well... just not the reaction I'm looking for then I feel like an idiot. I also wake up to a email from someone I have talked about many times on this blog asking how I am and stuff all just general stuff I start to write reply not even one line down I couldn't finish the reply so I stopped and just slept, woke up, tried again and felt I couldn't write it which is strange for me. I'm stressing over finances I think of everything I need money for, I think of how I should be mentally when uni starts up, social commitments, birthdays for close friends I want to lavish with something, gifts, or personal sentiment/homemade gifts and just don't have a thing. Everything is becoming a bit much I know others have problems and stuff so if I sound like a fuck I'll stop. Parents breath down my neck when they see a gap in my simple conversation. I'm kinda blank, feel hollow like I'm trying fill a void in my life and instead walking around in circles trying to find a purpose when all I probably need to do is just take a different step every now and again.

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